1 00:00:01,033 --> 00:00:01,756 Female Narrator: Previously on 'Forgive Me': 2 00:00:01,756 --> 00:00:06,201 The letter's almost 30 years old. 3 00:00:06,201 --> 00:00:08,371 That's to my mother. 4 00:00:08,371 --> 00:00:13,435 I think I should sue. 5 00:00:13,435 --> 00:00:15,364 Sue... the church? 6 00:00:15,364 --> 00:00:18,773 Mr. O'Leary is alleging sexual abuse 7 00:00:18,773 --> 00:00:23,011 in his history in the diocese. 8 00:00:23,011 --> 00:00:25,078 Do you know anything about that? 9 00:00:25,078 --> 00:00:27,352 I don't know how to answer. 10 00:00:27,352 --> 00:00:29,385 Mr. O'Leary is penitent. 11 00:00:31,072 --> 00:00:33,070 Have you spoken to him outside the booth? 12 00:00:33,070 --> 00:00:35,344 A couple of times. 13 00:00:35,344 --> 00:00:37,377 Did you give him the letters? 14 00:00:40,442 --> 00:00:42,303 Should I settle? 15 00:00:42,303 --> 00:00:44,128 I don't know. 16 00:00:44,128 --> 00:00:46,436 I mean, I don't think that you should worry 17 00:00:46,436 --> 00:00:48,262 about what the church is gonna do, 18 00:00:48,262 --> 00:00:50,295 they have people thinking about that, believe me. 19 00:00:50,295 --> 00:00:51,948 I'm a member of the church. 20 00:00:51,948 --> 00:00:54,772 How can I not think about what's good for the church? 21 00:00:54,772 --> 00:00:57,493 It's- [sighs] It's one in the same. 22 00:00:57,493 --> 00:01:03,040 You made me feel safe, and I never feel safe. 23 00:01:03,040 --> 00:01:05,038 [laughs nervously] 24 00:01:05,038 --> 00:01:06,449 I want you to know... 25 00:01:06,449 --> 00:01:08,035 [clears throat] 26 00:01:08,035 --> 00:01:11,343 that I feel comfort when I look at you. 27 00:01:11,343 --> 00:01:13,511 You need to go back, on the other side. 28 00:01:13,511 --> 00:01:15,544 [rattles the divider] Why? 29 00:01:15,544 --> 00:01:17,507 Because this is really inappropriate-- 30 00:01:17,507 --> 00:01:18,437 Aw! 31 00:01:18,437 --> 00:01:22,468 [uncomfortably] Mm! Mm. 32 00:01:22,468 --> 00:01:23,467 Mmm! 33 00:01:23,467 --> 00:01:24,466 [lips smack] 34 00:01:24,466 --> 00:01:25,465 [laughs] 35 00:01:25,465 --> 00:01:26,843 You can't help me! 36 00:01:26,843 --> 00:01:29,840 You're too chicken shit to ask! 37 00:01:29,840 --> 00:01:31,493 Go home. Go home. 38 00:01:31,493 --> 00:01:33,010 I don't want to go home! 39 00:01:33,010 --> 00:01:37,179 There's nothing for me there! 40 00:01:37,179 --> 00:01:40,279 I want to hear you tell the truth! 41 00:01:40,279 --> 00:01:42,897 Tit for tat, 'kay? 42 00:01:42,897 --> 00:01:44,446 That's the deal. 43 00:01:44,446 --> 00:01:50,131 No deal. Go. 44 00:01:54,058 --> 00:01:55,298 Fuckin' coward! 45 00:01:55,298 --> 00:02:01,361 [sighs heavily of relief] 46 00:02:05,185 --> 00:02:11,145 ? 'Ave Maria' by Christopher Frances Mitchell 47 00:02:16,932 --> 00:02:22,891 [footsteps on a wet sidewalk] 48 00:02:26,542 --> 00:02:32,501 The decision I made and the orders I followed 49 00:02:36,188 --> 00:02:38,841 those thirty odd years ago seemed like the right thing 50 00:02:38,841 --> 00:02:40,322 for your family at the time. 51 00:02:40,322 --> 00:02:43,113 [sarcastically] Ha! 52 00:02:43,113 --> 00:02:44,524 [sighs] 53 00:02:44,524 --> 00:02:46,487 I can see now that they weren't, 54 00:02:46,487 --> 00:02:48,004 I-I agree. 55 00:02:48,004 --> 00:02:50,794 But I'm talking about intentions. 56 00:02:50,794 --> 00:02:52,310 Is that an apology? 57 00:02:52,310 --> 00:02:56,339 Father Geniuses isn't here too apologize. 58 00:02:56,339 --> 00:02:58,821 The decisions you made caused me to live 59 00:02:58,821 --> 00:03:01,334 a completely faithless life. 60 00:03:01,334 --> 00:03:04,229 And I am poorer for that. 61 00:03:04,229 --> 00:03:06,227 The idea here is that Mr. O'Leary 62 00:03:06,227 --> 00:03:07,260 makes his victims statement 63 00:03:07,260 --> 00:03:09,499 in front of a representative of the diocese. 64 00:03:09,499 --> 00:03:11,462 So I'm not a victim, is that it? 65 00:03:11,462 --> 00:03:13,460 It's all right. 66 00:03:13,460 --> 00:03:15,149 I'm here to listen. 67 00:03:15,149 --> 00:03:21,143 I never trusted anyone, again. 68 00:03:25,310 --> 00:03:27,240 Nobody in authority. 69 00:03:27,240 --> 00:03:29,513 No man. 70 00:03:29,513 --> 00:03:35,507 My mistrust of men in authority held me back in school, in work, 71 00:03:39,194 --> 00:03:45,325 in my career, financially, emotionally, 72 00:03:45,325 --> 00:03:47,461 it has always held me back. 73 00:03:47,461 --> 00:03:49,012 To this day-- 74 00:03:49,012 --> 00:03:52,767 Wasn't the choirmaster responsible for all of that? 75 00:03:52,767 --> 00:03:55,315 Am I standing in for the perpetrator? 76 00:03:55,315 --> 00:03:57,278 You're a representative of the church. 77 00:03:57,278 --> 00:03:58,795 What are you? 78 00:03:58,795 --> 00:04:01,896 I went to you because you had the authority. 79 00:04:01,896 --> 00:04:04,238 I can imagine how it would seem that way. 80 00:04:04,238 --> 00:04:06,338 Now it doesn't anymore. 81 00:04:06,338 --> 00:04:07,544 Well, I'm not the police. 82 00:04:07,544 --> 00:04:09,542 You're not much of anything, are ya? 83 00:04:09,542 --> 00:04:13,125 Did you not write this report? 84 00:04:13,125 --> 00:04:15,951 Are those all the church records? 85 00:04:15,951 --> 00:04:17,949 They found the notice of discovery. 86 00:04:17,949 --> 00:04:19,980 The parish was obligated to turn over any records 87 00:04:19,980 --> 00:04:21,530 regarding the incident. 88 00:04:21,530 --> 00:04:23,976 Well, I didn't file any report! 89 00:04:23,976 --> 00:04:24,942 It's a letter. 90 00:04:24,942 --> 00:04:25,941 Ah. 91 00:04:25,941 --> 00:04:29,213 Well, I was a priest, I made a recommendation. 92 00:04:29,213 --> 00:04:33,966 I gave information, but the decision on how to proceed 93 00:04:33,966 --> 00:04:35,862 was never mine to make. 94 00:04:35,862 --> 00:04:37,101 So who's was it then? 95 00:04:37,101 --> 00:04:38,100 Yours! 96 00:04:38,100 --> 00:04:39,134 Wha-uh-- 97 00:04:39,134 --> 00:04:40,511 [laughs in disbelief] 98 00:04:40,511 --> 00:04:43,543 Well, you must remember better than I, 99 00:04:43,543 --> 00:04:45,852 when you came to the church, when your mother brought you, 100 00:04:45,852 --> 00:04:48,021 and you sat in front of me for... 101 00:04:48,021 --> 00:04:54,497 ten, fifteen minutes and you didn't admit anything. 102 00:04:54,497 --> 00:04:57,081 You never asked me. 103 00:04:57,081 --> 00:04:58,115 Directly. 104 00:04:58,115 --> 00:05:01,043 You treated me like- 105 00:05:01,043 --> 00:05:04,418 [sighs] 106 00:05:04,418 --> 00:05:06,485 you never asked in so many words, 107 00:05:06,485 --> 00:05:09,035 you wanted me to find the words. 108 00:05:09,035 --> 00:05:12,376 But we don't put words into an accuser's mouth, 109 00:05:12,376 --> 00:05:13,547 even I know that! 110 00:05:13,547 --> 00:05:15,959 Into a child's mouth? 111 00:05:15,959 --> 00:05:18,887 I didn't want to influence your story. 112 00:05:18,887 --> 00:05:22,022 But you had no story. 113 00:05:22,022 --> 00:05:23,503 You, you filed the report. 114 00:05:23,503 --> 00:05:25,225 It was a letter. 115 00:05:25,225 --> 00:05:28,498 Based upon the suspicions of the mother. 116 00:05:28,498 --> 00:05:30,461 To Father Belliveau-Brown and Pre-- 117 00:05:30,461 --> 00:05:32,459 I want to talk to Father Geniuses. 118 00:05:32,459 --> 00:05:34,010 Well that's why we're here. 119 00:05:34,010 --> 00:05:36,042 Alone. 120 00:05:36,042 --> 00:05:38,040 I think it's best if we maintain this form. 121 00:05:38,040 --> 00:05:40,038 I don't want to sit in front of all of you. 122 00:05:40,038 --> 00:05:44,138 I just want him to hear it. 123 00:05:44,138 --> 00:05:46,136 That's not what the parish agreed to. 124 00:05:46,136 --> 00:05:48,857 You don't want to hear anything 125 00:05:48,857 --> 00:05:50,855 I wouldn't say in front of my mother. 126 00:05:50,855 --> 00:05:53,025 We're not strangers. 127 00:05:53,025 --> 00:05:56,401 All right with you? 128 00:05:56,401 --> 00:05:57,400 Of course. 129 00:05:57,400 --> 00:06:02,051 You too. 130 00:06:02,051 --> 00:06:09,939 I've already heard it all. 131 00:06:09,939 --> 00:06:12,971 No. 132 00:06:12,971 --> 00:06:15,864 Not all of it. 133 00:06:15,864 --> 00:06:17,862 Just the sins. 134 00:06:34,880 --> 00:06:35,879 Ask me now. 135 00:06:35,879 --> 00:06:41,838 [large door closes] 136 00:06:49,486 --> 00:06:55,480 [whisper among themselves] 137 00:07:03,576 --> 00:07:09,776 [pew door opens and closes] 138 00:07:27,172 --> 00:07:33,131 How've things been at home? 139 00:07:33,131 --> 00:07:37,025 This nightmare. 140 00:07:37,025 --> 00:07:39,091 It never goes away. 141 00:07:39,091 --> 00:07:40,228 [sympathetically] Mm. 142 00:07:40,228 --> 00:07:44,189 I mean, it might soon. More so. 143 00:07:44,189 --> 00:07:49,253 Kills me to see him like this. 144 00:07:51,872 --> 00:07:53,870 The babies, the sound of them crying 145 00:07:53,870 --> 00:07:56,523 is like an arrow going through your heart. 146 00:07:56,523 --> 00:07:59,140 That's just evolution, just DNA. 147 00:07:59,140 --> 00:08:02,585 The baby cries you have to do something, 148 00:08:02,585 --> 00:08:03,929 you feed it, you clean it. 149 00:08:03,929 --> 00:08:06,098 Not big on evolution around here. 150 00:08:06,098 --> 00:08:08,096 Well you're not big on evidence either, 151 00:08:08,096 --> 00:08:10,094 I'm just saying when they're babies, 152 00:08:10,094 --> 00:08:13,367 you think when they grow up it's all going to be different. 153 00:08:13,367 --> 00:08:16,054 You won't feel like their pain is like your pain. 154 00:08:18,501 --> 00:08:20,498 But you do. 155 00:08:21,980 --> 00:08:23,909 Now I have to see them suffering. 156 00:08:23,909 --> 00:08:27,525 And there's nothing I can do about that. 157 00:08:27,525 --> 00:08:30,005 It's the worst thing ever for a mother 158 00:08:30,005 --> 00:08:33,313 to see her own child in despair. 159 00:08:33,313 --> 00:08:35,311 He's getting help now, all right? 160 00:08:35,311 --> 00:08:36,551 Don't give up hope for him. 161 00:08:36,551 --> 00:08:38,963 I didn't say I've given up hope. 162 00:08:38,963 --> 00:08:39,824 Good. 163 00:08:39,824 --> 00:08:42,304 He should just walk away from all this. 164 00:08:42,304 --> 00:08:46,541 That's what I'm trying to do. 165 00:08:46,541 --> 00:08:48,539 I thought I could leave it all behind, 166 00:08:48,539 --> 00:08:51,019 but Johnny, Johnny never wanted to leave the church. 167 00:08:51,019 --> 00:08:56,496 Secrets. 168 00:08:56,496 --> 00:09:01,250 Secrets festering and festering away for years. 169 00:09:01,250 --> 00:09:02,284 Ruined my family. 170 00:09:02,284 --> 00:09:09,414 No, the church itself didn't harm your son. 171 00:09:09,414 --> 00:09:10,931 Oh, bless your naivety. 172 00:09:10,931 --> 00:09:12,446 It was one bad man. 173 00:09:12,446 --> 00:09:14,409 And that's the kind of thinking that'll make sure 174 00:09:14,409 --> 00:09:15,408 it never stops. 175 00:09:15,408 --> 00:09:17,165 What are you? 176 00:09:17,165 --> 00:09:19,198 Fifty years left in you. 177 00:09:21,023 --> 00:09:21,988 Fifty years. 178 00:09:21,988 --> 00:09:28,016 With no sex. 179 00:09:28,016 --> 00:09:29,463 Is that the plan? 180 00:09:29,463 --> 00:09:32,012 That is one of the vows that I took. 181 00:09:32,012 --> 00:09:35,078 Well, all the priests take a vow until they lose their mind 182 00:09:35,078 --> 00:09:36,043 and go out and hurt somebody. 183 00:09:36,043 --> 00:09:38,350 I can handle my vow. 184 00:09:38,350 --> 00:09:42,899 Yeah but, to what, what end? 185 00:09:42,899 --> 00:09:44,930 I mean, c'mon, why not love? 186 00:09:46,895 --> 00:09:50,132 Love and then a wife and sex and then a family. 187 00:09:50,132 --> 00:09:56,850 I don't know, we're standing in for Christ on Earth? 188 00:09:56,850 --> 00:10:02,155 Wouldn't it be wonderful if they discovered Mary Magdalene 189 00:10:02,155 --> 00:10:06,322 did not have just a platonic relationship with Jesus? 190 00:10:06,322 --> 00:10:07,150 [laughs] 191 00:10:07,150 --> 00:10:09,354 That they were more than buddies. 192 00:10:09,354 --> 00:10:11,317 I'm pretty sure they would have figured that out already. 193 00:10:11,317 --> 00:10:13,315 Yeah, but if they had, they wouldn't tell you. 194 00:10:13,315 --> 00:10:14,177 Gonna keep you in despair. 195 00:10:14,177 --> 00:10:16,761 Gonna keep on messing with your head. 196 00:10:23,409 --> 00:10:24,339 How's your mother? 197 00:10:24,339 --> 00:10:27,026 She left. 198 00:10:27,026 --> 00:10:30,196 Well, you're a great listener for a priest, 199 00:10:30,196 --> 00:10:33,881 I didn't ask where she is, I asked how she is. 200 00:10:33,881 --> 00:10:34,984 I don't know. 201 00:10:34,984 --> 00:10:39,393 I mean, she certainly didn't seem very together 202 00:10:39,393 --> 00:10:41,185 when she was here. 203 00:10:41,185 --> 00:10:43,871 How could she be together with a dead son? 204 00:10:43,871 --> 00:10:44,870 She barely knew him. 205 00:10:44,870 --> 00:10:46,111 That doesn't matter. 206 00:10:46,111 --> 00:10:51,967 I think it does, I think she gave up certain maternal rights. 207 00:10:51,967 --> 00:10:55,826 No, you don't give up the right to grieve. 208 00:10:55,826 --> 00:10:58,030 And I'm not defending your mother. 209 00:10:58,030 --> 00:10:59,029 Don't even like her. 210 00:10:59,029 --> 00:11:01,440 She's a dreadful woman. 211 00:11:01,440 --> 00:11:03,300 Mhmm. 212 00:11:03,300 --> 00:11:04,299 Nasty woman. 213 00:11:04,299 --> 00:11:07,814 I mean, all that drug stuff and awful men, 214 00:11:07,814 --> 00:11:10,018 just screwing around in the hallway. 215 00:11:10,018 --> 00:11:12,326 That's what got us evicted. 216 00:11:12,326 --> 00:11:15,461 [jokingly] So, how do ya really feel about her? 217 00:11:15,461 --> 00:11:16,736 [serious] 218 00:11:16,736 --> 00:11:20,525 I can think-- I'm sorry, just thanks for not making me say it 219 00:11:20,525 --> 00:11:22,901 in front of defending her like everyone else around here 220 00:11:22,901 --> 00:11:24,038 seems to want too. 221 00:11:24,038 --> 00:11:27,794 Well, I can still empathises with a grieving mother. 222 00:11:27,794 --> 00:11:29,757 Even if she is a stupid old cow. 223 00:11:29,757 --> 00:11:30,756 [annoyed] 224 00:11:30,756 --> 00:11:31,755 Okay! 225 00:11:31,755 --> 00:11:32,651 Ah, see! 226 00:11:32,651 --> 00:11:35,337 I knew I could get you to defend her. 227 00:11:35,337 --> 00:11:36,750 [chuckles] 228 00:11:36,750 --> 00:11:38,334 I'm no better. 229 00:11:38,334 --> 00:11:41,021 I'm not. 230 00:11:41,021 --> 00:11:44,501 I'm not any better than my mom. 231 00:11:44,501 --> 00:11:50,218 Well if that's true, you must change that. 232 00:11:52,286 --> 00:11:54,284 That's what I'm trying to do. 233 00:11:57,211 --> 00:11:59,899 And I want all this behind me. 234 00:11:59,899 --> 00:12:02,035 I really want this just gone away. 235 00:12:02,035 --> 00:12:04,859 I want the taste of it gone. 236 00:12:04,859 --> 00:12:10,371 Dear God, I never thought in a million years 237 00:12:10,371 --> 00:12:12,369 that you and I would have ended up back here. 238 00:12:12,369 --> 00:12:13,368 [chuckles] 239 00:12:13,368 --> 00:12:19,397 [floor creaks under Johnny's heavy stomping] 240 00:12:31,005 --> 00:12:36,999 Ready to go mom? 241 00:12:43,407 --> 00:12:49,780 Yes, yeah. 242 00:12:49,780 --> 00:12:55,808 Just help me there. 243 00:13:02,285 --> 00:13:05,351 Thanks. 244 00:13:05,351 --> 00:13:12,206 [ *and whisper] 245 00:13:12,206 --> 00:13:14,204 Well you can do what you can do. 246 00:13:14,204 --> 00:13:15,168 Well, I'll do my best. 247 00:13:15,168 --> 00:13:21,300 Give my best to... Belliveau Brown [?] 248 00:13:28,500 --> 00:13:34,735 Thanks. 249 00:13:39,558 --> 00:13:45,758 [door closes] 250 00:14:01,879 --> 00:14:07,873 [weeping] 251 00:14:12,868 --> 00:14:18,862 [door closes] 252 00:14:34,915 --> 00:14:40,909 [sighs] 253 00:14:45,939 --> 00:14:51,933 [exhales] 254 00:14:57,961 --> 00:15:01,235 You gonna stay on that side this time? 255 00:15:01,235 --> 00:15:04,232 Yeah. 256 00:15:04,232 --> 00:15:05,231 Sorry. 257 00:15:05,231 --> 00:15:06,230 It's fine. 258 00:15:06,230 --> 00:15:07,951 It's not. 259 00:15:07,951 --> 00:15:09,984 I was wrong. 260 00:15:11,190 --> 00:15:12,534 I'm sorry. 261 00:15:12,534 --> 00:15:13,945 I forgive you. 262 00:15:13,945 --> 00:15:16,358 I was loaded and screwed up-- 263 00:15:16,358 --> 00:15:17,357 Okay, it's fine, it's fine. 264 00:15:17,357 --> 00:15:18,356 Alright? 265 00:15:18,356 --> 00:15:19,251 Just, let it go. 266 00:15:19,251 --> 00:15:23,040 If you really want to you can say like, 267 00:15:23,040 --> 00:15:25,038 ten Hail Marys when you get home. 268 00:15:25,038 --> 00:15:26,037 Consider the amount of resolve. 269 00:15:26,037 --> 00:15:27,347 I fucked up. 270 00:15:27,347 --> 00:15:29,172 It's fine, it's understandable, 271 00:15:29,172 --> 00:15:32,926 considering how you were feeling that day. 272 00:15:32,926 --> 00:15:37,921 Not, not that. 273 00:15:37,921 --> 00:15:39,919 What happened? 274 00:15:39,919 --> 00:15:43,296 I slept with someone I shouldn't have. 275 00:15:43,296 --> 00:15:46,121 Ex-girlfriend. 276 00:15:46,121 --> 00:15:47,120 She's married. 277 00:15:47,120 --> 00:15:48,807 When? 278 00:15:48,807 --> 00:15:49,806 After the funeral. 279 00:15:49,806 --> 00:15:52,941 After I left here. 280 00:15:52,941 --> 00:15:54,973 I didn't go back to my mothers. 281 00:15:54,973 --> 00:16:01,071 I went down to the bar, and I kept drinking. 282 00:16:01,071 --> 00:16:03,069 Y'know, I was on my phone and I messaged her. 283 00:16:03,069 --> 00:16:08,030 I was just so fucking alone. 284 00:16:08,030 --> 00:16:11,991 Look, I'm sorry if I made you feel that way, 285 00:16:11,991 --> 00:16:13,473 just, just, like-- 286 00:16:13,473 --> 00:16:15,471 No, I understand. 287 00:16:15,471 --> 00:16:18,880 I was out of line. 288 00:16:18,880 --> 00:16:21,808 Way, out of line. 289 00:16:21,808 --> 00:16:23,806 Did you know that she was married? 290 00:16:23,806 --> 00:16:24,805 Yeah. 291 00:16:24,805 --> 00:16:26,150 When you messaged her? 292 00:16:26,150 --> 00:16:27,149 Yeah. 293 00:16:27,149 --> 00:16:28,079 I've known for a while. 294 00:16:28,079 --> 00:16:31,317 She's been messaging me on Facebook for ages, 295 00:16:31,317 --> 00:16:37,965 even though I never respond. 296 00:16:37,965 --> 00:16:40,997 She's the only person who's ever made me feel a rush 297 00:16:40,997 --> 00:16:42,099 when I looked in her eyes. 298 00:16:42,099 --> 00:16:43,821 Mmm. 299 00:16:43,821 --> 00:16:46,337 Most beautiful thing I've ever seen. 300 00:16:46,337 --> 00:16:47,336 Boy or girl. 301 00:16:47,336 --> 00:16:48,505 Alright. 302 00:16:48,505 --> 00:16:51,366 So did you feel any better after you slept with her? 303 00:16:51,366 --> 00:16:52,365 For a minute, sure. 304 00:16:52,365 --> 00:16:58,771 Afterwards... mmm... nothing. 305 00:16:58,771 --> 00:17:01,356 I knew she felt it too. 306 00:17:01,356 --> 00:17:04,938 It's not like the movies where it turns out 307 00:17:04,938 --> 00:17:06,901 you've been waiting to find each other again. 308 00:17:06,901 --> 00:17:10,518 It's just this ugly feeling. 309 00:17:10,518 --> 00:17:11,896 Y'know, shame and stupidity. 310 00:17:11,896 --> 00:17:15,892 [scratches the wall of the booth] 311 00:17:15,892 --> 00:17:21,129 She wasn't going to leave her husband, 312 00:17:21,129 --> 00:17:28,569 I wasn't going to move back from California. 313 00:17:28,569 --> 00:17:30,532 Just served as a reminder that you can never go back 314 00:17:30,532 --> 00:17:31,669 to the past. 315 00:17:31,669 --> 00:17:33,874 Maybe that's been the lesson of this whole trip. 316 00:17:33,874 --> 00:17:36,561 Y'know? 317 00:17:36,561 --> 00:17:38,559 Leave the past where it belongs. 318 00:17:38,559 --> 00:17:41,936 Somewhere along the line, I gave up on the notion 319 00:17:41,936 --> 00:17:43,934 that anybody could love me. 320 00:17:45,347 --> 00:17:48,275 Because I don't love myself. 321 00:17:48,275 --> 00:17:51,306 I push people away, when they're close to me. 322 00:17:58,367 --> 00:18:00,882 I confess that I did this to myself. 323 00:18:03,053 --> 00:18:06,050 I made the choice to become this rotten person. 324 00:18:06,050 --> 00:18:12,147 But God forgives you. 325 00:18:12,147 --> 00:18:13,043 He loves ya. 326 00:18:13,043 --> 00:18:15,316 And he'd want you to love yourself. 327 00:18:21,242 --> 00:18:26,305 I'm afraid that I'll go home and nothing will change. 328 00:18:26,305 --> 00:18:27,236 Well, that's up to you. 329 00:18:27,236 --> 00:18:31,402 Okay, it sounds stupid, but it's true. 330 00:18:31,402 --> 00:18:34,160 There's a reason you've come in here this week, 331 00:18:34,160 --> 00:18:39,017 there's a reason that you've come to the conclusions you have 332 00:18:39,017 --> 00:18:40,497 this week. 333 00:18:40,497 --> 00:18:47,043 Sometimes it takes tragedy to give you... perspective, 334 00:18:47,043 --> 00:18:49,453 so you can become the man that you're supposed to be. 335 00:18:49,453 --> 00:18:50,521 Like trust me, I know. 336 00:18:50,521 --> 00:18:51,693 How? 337 00:18:51,693 --> 00:18:55,345 I've had a few roadblocks myself in the past year. 338 00:18:55,345 --> 00:18:57,514 Y'know? 339 00:18:57,514 --> 00:19:00,236 I questioned what I was doing and my place in the world 340 00:19:00,236 --> 00:19:03,233 but all you got in the end are your instincts. 341 00:19:05,575 --> 00:19:06,989 God gives you the tools man, 342 00:19:06,989 --> 00:19:09,262 you're the one that's got to use them. 343 00:19:09,262 --> 00:19:10,330 What, you just keep going? 344 00:19:10,330 --> 00:19:11,192 [chuckles] 345 00:19:11,192 --> 00:19:14,601 What else are you gonna do, right? 346 00:19:14,601 --> 00:19:17,254 Like everyday you wake up is another opportunity to, 347 00:19:17,254 --> 00:19:20,871 y'know, make the best of it. 348 00:19:20,871 --> 00:19:22,869 Sounds like a motivational poster. 349 00:19:22,869 --> 00:19:24,041 [laughs] 350 00:19:24,041 --> 00:19:25,866 That does sound like a motivation post, you're right. 351 00:19:25,866 --> 00:19:26,865 [sniffs] 352 00:19:26,865 --> 00:19:27,864 Ah. 353 00:19:27,864 --> 00:19:30,069 It is what it is. 354 00:19:30,069 --> 00:19:31,068 Will I be forgiven? 355 00:19:31,068 --> 00:19:32,963 For all of it? 356 00:19:32,963 --> 00:19:37,440 From the man upstairs? 357 00:19:37,440 --> 00:19:38,404 Yeah. 358 00:19:38,404 --> 00:19:40,437 Say an 'Our Father' to cover our bases-- 359 00:19:40,437 --> 00:19:41,470 [laughs] 360 00:19:41,470 --> 00:19:45,535 and together, "Our Father, who art in Heaven, 361 00:19:45,535 --> 00:19:47,810 hallowed by thy name. 362 00:19:48,843 --> 00:19:56,801 By Kingdom come, it will be done on Earth as it is in Heaven. 363 00:19:56,801 --> 00:20:00,451 Give us this day, our daily bread, 364 00:20:00,451 --> 00:20:02,311 and forgive those, Forgive us-- 365 00:20:02,311 --> 00:20:04,516 [frustrated sigh] 366 00:20:04,516 --> 00:20:07,032 It's alright. 367 00:20:07,032 --> 00:20:10,856 Forgive us, Our trespasses, Our trespasses, 368 00:20:10,856 --> 00:20:13,163 As we forgive those 369 00:20:13,163 --> 00:20:16,023 Who trespass against us. 370 00:20:16,023 --> 00:20:22,809 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil." 371 00:20:22,809 --> 00:20:28,148 Amen. 372 00:20:28,148 --> 00:20:31,386 Can I stay in here a little while with you? 373 00:20:31,386 --> 00:20:32,385 No weirdness. 374 00:20:32,385 --> 00:20:34,901 [laughs] 375 00:20:34,901 --> 00:20:35,900 Just scared to be alone. 376 00:20:35,900 --> 00:20:39,068 [breathes deeply] 377 00:20:39,068 --> 00:20:40,791 Yep. 378 00:20:40,791 --> 00:20:46,785 As long as you want. 379 00:20:48,990 --> 00:20:50,988 Well, the O'Leary mediation is over. 380 00:20:50,988 --> 00:20:54,984 And the Bishop is expecting a resignation. 381 00:20:54,984 --> 00:20:55,983 Today. 382 00:20:55,983 --> 00:20:57,154 Well, I'm not resigning. 383 00:20:57,154 --> 00:21:02,527 After what I heard today and everything that's come to light, 384 00:21:02,527 --> 00:21:05,352 if anyone should resign, it's the Bishop. 385 00:21:05,352 --> 00:21:07,868 He can shut the parish down. 386 00:21:07,868 --> 00:21:10,175 He can keep it open and transfer us all. 387 00:21:12,241 --> 00:21:14,206 Or retire, you and me. 388 00:21:14,206 --> 00:21:16,204 Well, I'd rather be fired than quit. 389 00:21:16,204 --> 00:21:18,133 And bring us all down with you? 390 00:21:18,133 --> 00:21:19,166 Oh, and about you? 391 00:21:19,166 --> 00:21:22,198 This whole lawsuit happened under your watch. 392 00:21:22,198 --> 00:21:25,091 You want to be the last lead of this parish? 393 00:21:25,091 --> 00:21:27,226 Then who'd be prelate then, you? 394 00:21:27,226 --> 00:21:28,398 I'll go. 395 00:21:28,398 --> 00:21:29,708 I did this. 396 00:21:29,708 --> 00:21:33,187 That sleeping dog was lying for thirty years 'til I woke it up. 397 00:21:33,187 --> 00:21:34,841 You didn't do anything wrong. 398 00:21:34,841 --> 00:21:37,872 I handed over those letters. 399 00:21:37,872 --> 00:21:41,902 I gave property away to someone to use in a lawsuit against us, 400 00:21:41,902 --> 00:21:45,106 I gave him his case. 401 00:21:45,106 --> 00:21:47,104 And I don't know that if it happened again 402 00:21:47,104 --> 00:21:49,273 I'd do it any differently, so maybe I'm not cut out for this. 403 00:21:49,273 --> 00:21:52,408 What future would this parish have without you? 404 00:21:52,408 --> 00:21:54,889 Look, maybe that makes sense. 405 00:21:54,889 --> 00:21:57,472 You're gonna throw the kid under the bus. 406 00:21:57,472 --> 00:21:59,401 He's sick. 407 00:21:59,401 --> 00:22:01,468 He's got a whole other world of problems. 408 00:22:05,464 --> 00:22:07,462 Maybe it's the right decision for him. 409 00:22:07,462 --> 00:22:10,805 Well I'd rather resign than to see him punished. 410 00:22:10,805 --> 00:22:12,526 We're all being punished. 411 00:22:12,526 --> 00:22:13,491 I'm going. 412 00:22:13,491 --> 00:22:18,830 I got a teaching post back in New York. 413 00:22:18,830 --> 00:22:19,933 Since when? 414 00:22:19,933 --> 00:22:22,413 Since the lawsuit was filed. 415 00:22:22,413 --> 00:22:24,445 You think this is over? 416 00:22:25,513 --> 00:22:27,339 Settled out of court. 417 00:22:27,339 --> 00:22:28,924 People are gonna find out. 418 00:22:28,924 --> 00:22:32,334 Whispers are gonna become screams. 419 00:22:32,334 --> 00:22:34,022 [chuckles] 420 00:22:34,022 --> 00:22:35,986 I've been there before. 421 00:22:37,432 --> 00:22:41,015 And I'm not gonna stick around for that. 422 00:22:41,015 --> 00:22:44,287 But you're the only one who bears no culpability 423 00:22:44,287 --> 00:22:45,907 for this whatsoever. 424 00:22:45,907 --> 00:22:46,906 Exactly. 425 00:22:46,906 --> 00:22:48,904 So why should I deal with the consequences? 426 00:22:48,904 --> 00:22:50,833 [scoffs] 427 00:22:50,833 --> 00:22:55,483 I don't want to be associated with any of ya. 428 00:22:55,483 --> 00:22:56,965 I think it's time to leave now. 429 00:22:56,965 --> 00:23:03,097 [sighs] 430 00:23:07,024 --> 00:23:13,018 ? 431 00:23:17,048 --> 00:23:23,008 Narrator: Next time on 'Forgive Me': 432 00:24:17,574 --> 00:24:21,570 We have a school, as you know, a very small one. 433 00:24:21,570 --> 00:24:27,495 We could take in a young girl, without the whole convent 434 00:24:27,495 --> 00:24:32,938 being curious about her history, where she comes from. 435 00:24:32,938 --> 00:24:35,211 Thank you. 436 00:24:35,211 --> 00:24:37,209 I didn't know that could be an option. 437 00:24:37,209 --> 00:24:41,136 Well it wasn't before, but I've moved up. In rank. 438 00:24:41,136 --> 00:24:44,995 I could squash any curiosity about her background. 439 00:24:44,995 --> 00:24:46,958 I think I'd prefer to have my daughter be raised 440 00:24:46,958 --> 00:24:47,854 with her family. 441 00:24:47,854 --> 00:24:51,850 Well it wouldn't be any further away. 442 00:24:51,850 --> 00:24:52,814 But I don't go there. 443 00:24:52,814 --> 00:24:57,775 We could give you reasons to go there. 444 00:24:57,825 --> 00:25:02,375 Repair and Synchronization by Easy Subtitles Synchronizer 1.0.0.0